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Re-Desteni Cult and Confession of sins	LIsara	Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Question: I won't write you again for at least a while. I just wanted to thank you for answering my issue with Desteni cult. Before that, I had been having some serious doubts related to the existence of God, Jesus, and Catholic Faith since my father died this last October. I made it worse for myself by indulging my curiosity. I went to confession and took my older kids (14 and 15 y.o.) . The hardest thing to confess is doubting the existence of God, because on one hand I know that questioning is not bad, but persisting in ignorance or looking in the wrong place is bad. I know if there is a personal evil=the Devil (there is, is there??) it does not have much work to do with me. I feel so lonely knowing there is enough disorder and desire for sin IN ME that I can't justifiably say I was "ensnared" by the devil and OUTSIDE FORCE (as if I am innocently seduced). So there is so much I must give up. Though I went to church regularly, I rationalized sin. I rationalzed my need for those many glasses of wine I took everyday after dinner (I take care of my mom and dad, I need to wind down! I need to relax!) I rationalized my love of and obsession with occult movies(I am rooting for the good guy--yeah riiiight). I rationalized my desire to do occult research (I am just learning...FORWHAT?!?I ask myself now.) I rationalized my love of metal music (I am 43 and could never shake this from sine I was 15) and even the darker kind of metal(I am an adult! I am not as impressionable!--but I am because it has affected my spiritual life). So I have so much to give up, and sometimes it makes me panic thinking what will DOOO wihout these crutches? My kids ask me how I am going to give up these desires, as if NOT doing what you like is an alien concept (it is). I said that even though I "love" those things I can still give them up. I admitted to them my addiction to these things.
Question Answered by Bro. Ignatius Mary, OLSM Dear LIsara: Sorry fo the delay in responding. You are most welcome. If sounds like you are aware of the issues and what you need to do. Remember God has not abandoned you. He is there to help you find freedom from these improper attachments. In the counseling I do, we have a session on the subject of Abandonment/Surrender to God. Maybe that brochure will be helpful to you. You can download it here. God Bless, Bro. Ignatius Mary For information on how to receive help see our Help page. We suggest that before contacting us directly for help you try the Seven Steps to Self-Deliverance. These self-help steps will often resolve the problem. Also our Spiritual Warfare Prayer Catalog contains many prayers that may be helpful. If needed you can ask for a Personal Consultation.

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Re-Desteni Cult and Confession of sins

LIsara

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

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I won't write you again for at least a while. I just wanted to thank you for answering my issue with Desteni cult. Before that, I had been having some serious doubts related to the existence of God, Jesus, and Catholic Faith since my father died this last October. I made it worse for myself by indulging my curiosity.

I went to confession and took my older kids (14 and 15 y.o.) . The hardest thing to confess is doubting the existence of God, because on one hand I know that questioning is not bad, but persisting in ignorance or looking in the wrong place is bad. I know if there is a personal evil=the Devil (there is, is there??) it does not have much work to do with me.

I feel so lonely knowing there is enough disorder and desire for sin IN ME that I can't justifiably say I was "ensnared" by the devil and OUTSIDE FORCE (as if I am innocently seduced).

So there is so much I must give up. Though I went to church regularly, I rationalized sin. I rationalzed my need for those many glasses of wine I took everyday after dinner (I take care of my mom and dad, I need to wind down! I need to relax!) I rationalized my love of and obsession with occult movies(I am rooting for the good guy--yeah riiiight). I rationalized my desire to do occult research (I am just learning...FORWHAT?!?I ask myself now.) I rationalized my love of metal music (I am 43 and could never shake this from sine I was 15) and even the darker kind of metal(I am an adult! I am not as impressionable!--but I am because it has affected my spiritual life).

So I have so much to give up, and sometimes it makes me panic thinking what will DOOO wihout these crutches? My kids ask me how I am going to give up these desires, as if NOT doing what you like is an alien concept (it is). I said that even though I "love" those things I can still give them up. I admitted to them my addiction to these things.

Question Answered by Bro. Ignatius Mary, OLSM

Dear LIsara:

Sorry fo the delay in responding.

You are most welcome. If sounds like you are aware of the issues and what you need to do. Remember God has not abandoned you. He is there to help you find freedom from these improper attachments.

In the counseling I do, we have a session on the subject of Abandonment/Surrender to God. Maybe that brochure will be helpful to you.

You can download it here.

God Bless,
Bro. Ignatius Mary

For information on how to receive help see our Help page. We suggest that before contacting us directly for help you try the Seven Steps to Self-Deliverance. These self-help steps will often resolve the problem. Also our Spiritual Warfare Prayer Catalog contains many prayers that may be helpful. If needed you can ask for a Personal Consultation.