I had this weird experience 11 years ago. One night, I was suddenly awaken by a sexual molestation. I can’t move. My eyes are closed but I fell something on my top and its pumping on me. My organ is responding. With my will to depend my self. I suddenly can see while my eyes are closed. It was a black slim humanlike bodied being on my top holding my hands nailing me in bed. It was raping me. To my dismay, my mind and will though seemed so strong. I concentrate on its head. Suddenly its head disappeared, the pumping stopped but still I can not move. I repeated the new found tactic slowly in its different parts, the being diminished in size. until everything had vanished on top of me. That’s the was the only time I was able to move and got off the bed still frightened and unbelieving on what happened.

Am I just dreaming, but I’m awake. How could I ever had done that, I’m not praying during the struggle. What power had been working, I’m not God. (Ref. Revelation: the confrontation of God and Satan – Satan was destroyed.)

In some other experiences a cool air seem to be around me. Since the weather at that time was warm. I did not bothered about the cool feeling around. I felt as if it entered my body starting from my foot slowly to my body. when it reached my neck I can no longer move. I panicked . My head shook, My teeth gnashed. As my teeth gnash, I observed the cool something can no longer advance into my head. That's the time I decided it was a bad thing and its time to fight back. Using the same tactic and commanding the thing to get off my body, it helped me to dispel the cool bad thing on my body. Again, I was awake.

Just past 6 months I was preparing for my lecture on "The Rosary and Salvation" and our prayer book for our prayer group. Many more molesting being bother me for a month. Many bad odors with different effects. Many felt things causes me many different physical pains. Many images. Even in my dreams they attacked me. Even in my Prayers they interfere. It even blocked my understanding while studying on my topic and project.

I was inspired to go on good confession. After which the understanding flowed. After getting our parish priest’s approval of our prayers the pains diminished a half. After delivering my lecture the attacks stopped. Upon staring the prayer devotions the pains stopped. While going on the prayer devotions, horrible sounds and odors distressed our group and even unexplained phenomenon. With more intense devotions..... and sing the “Kyrie elision” we are now happy the disturbances no longer haunt us. Hoping that it will never recur again.

Now, I want to know. Can you tell me about my state? specially my effect on the spirit? on my first experience - I researched, It was an incubus, it extinguised in my front with just my will? Could that really be possible a gift for a human - I read in the book of revelation, its only God who did it!

My experiences, how can I discount it?. I admit, up to the moment, I'm still in a wondering state. Could be it a gift? I would like to take your honest opinion. Tell me I’m crazy and I’ll be happy that I know where to get a relief