Question:
Dear Brother,
A few weeks ago I told you about a therapist I was seeing and you told me it was not a good idea to see him since it was an unhealthy attachment. I stopped going to therapy with him which was very hard to do, but recently got an unsolicited call from him. At the last session, I went in with the intent to say no more and that's it and during this last session I cried and said I'd call him if I changed my mind. That 'window' was due to how he behaves, which I explain at the end of this.
During the unsolicited call, he told me that if I ever wanted to come back I was welcome. He believes in reincarnation and told me that we both possess "knowingness". I bluntly told him on the phone that knowingness was not good. He responded by saying knowingness was not good for me, but it was ok for him. He then said he used to be terrified by it and is comfortable with it now. I was floored by what he said; it didn't seem like I could appeal to any reason. Even when I told him knowingness made me throw up all over the place, he was not convinced that knowingness could be objectively bad. Then we said bye and that was it.
I'm not sure if there is a part of him that knows that psychic things aren't good. It's not like I am deliberately trying to convince him. It was just that we were on the phone and the reason for my termination came up. When I talk to him, I feel like he is chipping at my basic defenses, but drawing out my agreeable nature. I think everyone has a basic intent for doing things and until I can see clearly their motives I don't open up esp. if it's something serious. But his motives are sort of veiled except that he seems to know my basic defenses, which as I said, is that I like to be pretty certain of a person's intent. Do you think that he may get under my skin b/c he has a demon around him? Also, it's only after talking to him that I can sit calmly and consider for myself what has taken place.
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