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physical appearance	Katie	Friday, August 22, 2008
Question: I can pinpoint this problem to some nasty abuse I got in Catholic school for being ugly. I think physical appearance is the deciding factor in relationships and many other areas in life. I think about suicide a lot, but know that there is no way for me to do it. I am 29 and will be 30 in a month and have no idea who I am or what to do with my life and time is passing. Someone told me that maybe I have this confusion b/c I look for the wrong things in a career, i.e. money and prestige and stifle what I really wanted to do, maybe what Jesus wants me to do. I don't get that...does Jesus want some people to be cops (I have nothing against them, but I don't believe that they idealize their job and say 'I am a guardian of the citizens' or something) Since this is a post about spiritual warfare, I guess I should connect it to demons. Ok...I did play with a ouija board when I was in high school and I can pinpoint that time to some dark cloud that has hovered over me ever since. I also loved to play the legend of zelda and it always scared me but I still played every day and I had nightmares and developed bizarre fears that I hid from everyone, the content of those fears being related to the game. Sometimes I think it will all be over soon and I don't care. I ask Jesus when I'll die, but he doesn't tell me. I have a feeling God wants me to spend all my time suffering, and when I asked Jesus all that came into my head was suffer more and trust me. It seems messed up; maybe it's my own head trying to rationalize my pain or make a drama out of it. I'm not schizophrenic, but sometimes if you pray you get a sense of what God's answer is.
Question Answered by Bro. Ignatius Mary, OLSM Dear Katie: Given the background you describe I can understand your issues about physical appearance. But, as you know, your interest in physical appearance is excessive, even pathological. You really need to see a counselor. It is possible to deal with the hurts of the past and to work toward a more balanced view about appearance. Your background in occult issues needs to be addressed as well. If you have not already done so, you need to confess those involvements with Ouija Boards, games, and the like. More is needed, however. In addition you need to renounce these occult activities and take back the ground stolen in your life by the devil. You can find a Renunciation Prayer in our SW Prayer Catalog linked below. Also in that Catalog is a Hedge Prayer of Protection and a Rebuking Particular Spirits. The rebuking prayer is to rebuke spirits that may be harassing you now, like the spirit of confusion, the spirit of envy, etc. My greatest concern, however, is your talking about suicide. Even though you think you would never do that, to think about this, to talk about this, to even pray to God about when you might die is a serious thing. You MUST talk to someone about this. I advise that you seek counseling as soon as possible. You need to work through those thoughts and feelings. I would also rebuke the spirit of depression, the spirit of despair, and the spirit of suicide. I am not kidding here, Katie, these thoughts and feelings of suicide or wanting to die are serious business no to be taken lightly. Rebuke those spirits of depression, despair, and suicide when that happen. But, please seek counseling right away. If money is the issue then seek a counselor that charges on a sliding-scale, like Catholic Charities, Lutheran Social Services, or the County Mental Health Services. It is also important to talk with someone at the times these thoughts and feelings come upon you, even if it is in the middle of the night. Your area may have a Crisis Hotline. Find out and call them when you need. If your area does not have a Crisis Hotline then try the website of the National Crisis Hotlines Index. There are several Hotlines listed that you can call. We will be praying for you. God Bless, Bro. Ignatius Mary For information on how to receive help see our Help page. We suggest that before contacting us directly for help you try the Seven Steps to Self-Deliverance. These self-help steps will often resolve the problem. Also our Spiritual Warfare Prayer Catalog contains many prayers that may be helpful. If needed you can ask for a Personal Consultation.

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physical appearance

Katie

Friday, August 22, 2008

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I can pinpoint this problem to some nasty abuse I got in Catholic school for being ugly. I think physical appearance is the deciding factor in relationships and many other areas in life.

I think about suicide a lot, but know that there is no way for me to do it. I am 29 and will be 30 in a month and have no idea who I am or what to do with my life and time is passing. Someone told me that maybe I have this confusion b/c I look for the wrong things in a career, i.e. money and prestige and stifle what I really wanted to do, maybe what Jesus wants me to do. I don't get that...does Jesus want some people to be cops (I have nothing against them, but I don't believe that they idealize their job and say 'I am a guardian of the citizens' or something)

Since this is a post about spiritual warfare, I guess I should connect it to demons. Ok...I did play with a ouija board when I was in high school and I can pinpoint that time to some dark cloud that has hovered over me ever since. I also loved to play the legend of zelda and it always scared me but I still played every day and I had nightmares and developed bizarre fears that I hid from everyone, the content of those fears being related to the game.

Sometimes I think it will all be over soon and I don't care. I ask Jesus when I'll die, but he doesn't tell me. I have a feeling God wants me to spend all my time suffering, and when I asked Jesus all that came into my head was suffer more and trust me. It seems messed up; maybe it's my own head trying to rationalize my pain or make a drama out of it. I'm not schizophrenic, but sometimes if you pray you get a sense of what God's answer is.

Question Answered by Bro. Ignatius Mary, OLSM

Dear Katie:

Given the background you describe I can understand your issues about physical appearance. But, as you know, your interest in physical appearance is excessive, even pathological. You really need to see a counselor. It is possible to deal with the hurts of the past and to work toward a more balanced view about appearance.

Your background in occult issues needs to be addressed as well. If you have not already done so, you need to confess those involvements with Ouija Boards, games, and the like. More is needed, however.

In addition you need to renounce these occult activities and take back the ground stolen in your life by the devil. You can find a Renunciation Prayer in our SW Prayer Catalog linked below.

Also in that Catalog is a Hedge Prayer of Protection and a Rebuking Particular Spirits. The rebuking prayer is to rebuke spirits that may be harassing you now, like the spirit of confusion, the spirit of envy, etc.

My greatest concern, however, is your talking about suicide. Even though you think you would never do that, to think about this, to talk about this, to even pray to God about when you might die is a serious thing. You MUST talk to someone about this.

I advise that you seek counseling as soon as possible. You need to work through those thoughts and feelings. I would also rebuke the spirit of depression, the spirit of despair, and the spirit of suicide.

I am not kidding here, Katie, these thoughts and feelings of suicide or wanting to die are serious business no to be taken lightly. Rebuke those spirits of depression, despair, and suicide when that happen. But, please seek counseling right away. If money is the issue then seek a counselor that charges on a sliding-scale, like Catholic Charities, Lutheran Social Services, or the County Mental Health Services.

It is also important to talk with someone at the times these thoughts and feelings come upon you, even if it is in the middle of the night. Your area may have a Crisis Hotline. Find out and call them when you need. If your area does not have a Crisis Hotline then try the website of the National Crisis Hotlines Index. There are several Hotlines listed that you can call.

We will be praying for you.

God Bless,
Bro. Ignatius Mary

For information on how to receive help see our Help page. We suggest that before contacting us directly for help you try the Seven Steps to Self-Deliverance. These self-help steps will often resolve the problem. Also our Spiritual Warfare Prayer Catalog contains many prayers that may be helpful. If needed you can ask for a Personal Consultation.