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Recognizing the demonic	Candeo	Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Question: Hello, I am curious to know if what I have experienced in my life of late could be of demonic origin, and what I would need to do to rid myself of evil influence if this is the case. From a very early age (4?) until my early teens I was addicted to sexual sin. Even early on, I knew this was evil, and it did not particularly bother me--I believe I was thus able to sin as early as 4. In those 10+ years of hedonism, I can remember thinking and doing all sorts of bizarre things that were not your run-of-the-mill sins of the flesh. I also knowingly received the Eucharist in the state of mortal sin. In my early teens, I stopped all this activity, went to confession, and began to try and live a devout life. In college, I began to pray in a new way, which I now know to be mental prayer/contemplation. I felt a new closeness to and intimacy with the Lord, and it was a time of great spiritual consolation. I received locutions and never doubted their heavenly origin, but in the end, the "logical" me won out and, since I did not have a spiritual director, I abandoned this spiritual richness and depth. During my senior year, I began dating my future husband. Throughout our courtship, he was plagued with doubts about our relationship, to the point that we were on-again, off-again continuously. He said that Satan was attacking him in his discernment; I felt that the Blessed Mother was herself leading me to "hang in there." One day, we visited the farm of a friend of mine to help out the family. The father and mother had recently divorced, and the mother was depressed. My friend had frequently seen demons on the farm property, and my then-fiancé and I definitely sensed an oppression at the time we were there. From that time on, I have experienced a spiritual darkness. I do not know if it stems from my childhood or from the visit to this farm, or if it is all in my head. For the past four years, until recently, I did not pray--I felt an aversion to prayer and all things spiritual. I went to Mass and intellectually assented to all tenets of the Faith, but I could not participate in my heart. My devout husband was at a loss, thinking I was a godless woman. I also experienced a complete lack of sexual desire, a huge cross for my husband. Six months ago I began going to daily Mass. The veil soon fell, in a good way. I again experienced a time of consolation, and began getting spiritual direction. The priest informed me that he felt that I had some spiritual healing to do, and recommended that I look over my life. I did so, and many things came to light--not just the sexual sins of my past. I discovered a deep-seated rage that I harbored in my heart, probably directed toward my parents and in feeling frequently abandoned by them as a child. This rage would always manifest itself in my relationships, and even in my marriage. Inexplicably, I would become so angered at my husband that I would shout out so many hurtful, spiteful, evil things, and I felt like I could not stop. After recognizing some possible sources of the rage, I was able to heal and forgive those I had been hurt by. Then, other things began to happen. (Still within the last six months.) My marriage took a great turn south, though my spiritual life seemed very deep and rich. The closer I drew to the Lord, the further I seemed from my husband. Anger and rage began to manifest toward him, and there was constant lack of communication. Once, in adoration, I received a name in prayer from my guardian angel. I did not know what the name was but I knew God would make it and its importance known in His time. Several weeks later while in adoration again, I was reading Theology of the Body, and JPII was talking about the book of Tobit. There was the name again: Asmodeus. I believe that this demon has been attacking my marriage, but again, this could all be in my head? About two months ago I had an emotional breakdown and plunged into depression. This was after several other instances of having been hurt in my past surfaced. All of this was tied to spiritual healing and cleansing, I am convinced. I have begun to pray for deliverance with every reception of the Eucharist, and I have begun to wear the scapular daily instead of just at night, and this has seemed to help. However, then the physical pain began. All the sudden, after all-night adoration, my back gave out and I could not walk for days, and I have had continuous trouble with it for the last several weeks. Additionally, on two occasions, I broke out in hives all over my body. My legs have been aching. Several weeks ago, I was a physically healthy 25 year old woman; now I feel like I am 80 years old. My question is, do you suspect any demonic activity here, or is this just completely psychological in nature? I have always been an independent, confident woman, and to have been reduced to a helpless nothing in such a short matter of time was truly humbling...I am ready to do any and everything necessary to rid my life of evil influences. Thank you in advance for your reply, and God bless you.
Question Answered by Bro. Ignatius Mary, OLSM Dear Candeo: The direct answer to your question is that based on the narrative you posted, yes, I suspect demonic activity. There is no way for me to confirm that or be more specific without knowing a lot more about you, but from the little information you have posted, I think it might be worth you undergoing deliverance counseling, or at least looking into the possibility. I would recommend you contact me by email to make an appointment for a telephone conference. There is no charge and I pay for the phone call. God Bless, Bro. Ignatius Mary email me For information on how to receive help see our Help page. We suggest that before contacting us directly for help you try the Seven Steps to Self-Deliverance. These self-help steps will often resolve the problem. Also our Spiritual Warfare Prayer Catalog contains many prayers that may be helpful. If needed you can ask for a Personal Consultation.

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Recognizing the demonic

Candeo

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

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Hello,
I am curious to know if what I have experienced in my life of late could be of demonic origin, and what I would need to do to rid myself of evil influence if this is the case.

From a very early age (4?) until my early teens I was addicted to sexual sin. Even early on, I knew this was evil, and it did not particularly bother me--I believe I was thus able to sin as early as 4. In those 10+ years of hedonism, I can remember thinking and doing all sorts of bizarre things that were not your run-of-the-mill sins of the flesh. I also knowingly received the Eucharist in the state of mortal sin.

In my early teens, I stopped all this activity, went to confession, and began to try and live a devout life. In college, I began to pray in a new way, which I now know to be mental prayer/contemplation. I felt a new closeness to and intimacy with the Lord, and it was a time of great spiritual consolation. I received locutions and never doubted their heavenly origin, but in the end, the "logical" me won out and, since I did not have a spiritual director, I abandoned this spiritual richness and depth.

During my senior year, I began dating my future husband. Throughout our courtship, he was plagued with doubts about our relationship, to the point that we were on-again, off-again continuously. He said that Satan was attacking him in his discernment; I felt that the Blessed Mother was herself leading me to "hang in there."

One day, we visited the farm of a friend of mine to help out the family. The father and mother had recently divorced, and the mother was depressed. My friend had frequently seen demons on the farm property, and my then-fiancé and I definitely sensed an oppression at the time we were there.

From that time on, I have experienced a spiritual darkness. I do not know if it stems from my childhood or from the visit to this farm, or if it is all in my head. For the past four years, until recently, I did not pray--I felt an aversion to prayer and all things spiritual. I went to Mass and intellectually assented to all tenets of the Faith, but I could not participate in my heart. My devout husband was at a loss, thinking I was a godless woman. I also experienced a complete lack of sexual desire, a huge cross for my husband.

Six months ago I began going to daily Mass. The veil soon fell, in a good way. I again experienced a time of consolation, and began getting spiritual direction. The priest informed me that he felt that I had some spiritual healing to do, and recommended that I look over my life. I did so, and many things came to light--not just the sexual sins of my past.

I discovered a deep-seated rage that I harbored in my heart, probably directed toward my parents and in feeling frequently abandoned by them as a child. This rage would always manifest itself in my relationships, and even in my marriage. Inexplicably, I would become so angered at my husband that I would shout out so many hurtful, spiteful, evil things, and I felt like I could not stop. After recognizing some possible sources of the rage, I was able to heal and forgive those I had been hurt by.

Then, other things began to happen. (Still within the last six months.) My marriage took a great turn south, though my spiritual life seemed very deep and rich. The closer I drew to the Lord, the further I seemed from my husband. Anger and rage began to manifest toward him, and there was constant lack of communication.

Once, in adoration, I received a name in prayer from my guardian angel. I did not know what the name was but I knew God would make it and its importance known in His time. Several weeks later while in adoration again, I was reading Theology of the Body, and JPII was talking about the book of Tobit. There was the name again: Asmodeus. I believe that this demon has been attacking my marriage, but again, this could all be in my head?

About two months ago I had an emotional breakdown and plunged into depression. This was after several other instances of having been hurt in my past surfaced. All of this was tied to spiritual healing and cleansing, I am convinced.

I have begun to pray for deliverance with every reception of the Eucharist, and I have begun to wear the scapular daily instead of just at night, and this has seemed to help.

However, then the physical pain began. All the sudden, after all-night adoration, my back gave out and I could not walk for days, and I have had continuous trouble with it for the last several weeks. Additionally, on two occasions, I broke out in hives all over my body. My legs have been aching. Several weeks ago, I was a physically healthy 25 year old woman; now I feel like I am 80 years old.

My question is, do you suspect any demonic activity here, or is this just completely psychological in nature? I have always been an independent, confident woman, and to have been reduced to a helpless nothing in such a short matter of time was truly humbling...I am ready to do any and everything necessary to rid my life of evil influences.

Thank you in advance for your reply, and God bless you.

Question Answered by Bro. Ignatius Mary, OLSM

Dear Candeo:

The direct answer to your question is that based on the narrative you posted, yes, I suspect demonic activity. There is no way for me to confirm that or be more specific without knowing a lot more about you, but from the little information you have posted, I think it might be worth you undergoing deliverance counseling, or at least looking into the possibility.

I would recommend you contact me by email to make an appointment for a telephone conference. There is no charge and I pay for the phone call.

God Bless,
Bro. Ignatius Mary
email me

For information on how to receive help see our Help page. We suggest that before contacting us directly for help you try the Seven Steps to Self-Deliverance. These self-help steps will often resolve the problem. Also our Spiritual Warfare Prayer Catalog contains many prayers that may be helpful. If needed you can ask for a Personal Consultation.