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a decision and a friends death	Liss	Tuesday, January 25, 2005
Question: Something happened 5 years ago that I still struggle with; I dont know how to feel or think about it. This story involved three other people, I am giving them different names: a dear friend (paul), a best friend (rachel), and her sister (mary). At the time, I was in love with paul. We knew we werent supposed to be together and had talked about it, and were continuing in friendship only. I still struggled, but I accepted what God wanted for me. One night, my mom and I were talking, and she mentioned that in rachels home town, there had been a horrible car accident, and one of the girls in the car had died instantly. I was a little worried it was rachel, but didnt believe it would be her- she lived in a good-sized city. When I went back up to my bedroom, I was still thinking about this. And suddenly, I thought: what if its mary? I believe this was a question that was asked of me; it had that feeling to it. I struggled with this, and prayed to God to not let it be Mary; I knew it would devastate rachel. After a few minutes of prayer, another question was asked of me: would you rather paul or mary die? I was shocked and prayed and cried and struggled for a few hours, refusing to choose. I tried everything I could to not decide anything... Then I asked what would happen if I didnt choose, and I was told that they would both die. So, still being in love, I chose for paul to live, but added that I was not making the decision. The voice, whoever it was, stopped talking to me. I was exhausted and fell asleep. The next morning, I woke up, and found out that mary was dead. I am confused what to think. I know I had a conversation with a supernatural being, but I dont want it to be God, I would rather it be Satan. However, I dont believe Satan can read minds, and most of this was a conversation inside my head. Regardless of who I was talking with, I do feel a tremendous amout of guilt and this is just so painful. I just don't know what to do about this. Thank you.
Question Answered by Bro. Ignatius Mary, OLSM Dear Liss: I am sorry for your loss, but you had nothing to do with the death of your friend. You are correct in saying that this voice was not God. God would not do something like this. While demons (and angels) cannot read your inner thoughts they can communicate with you and you with them if you choose "inside yoiuyr head". As the death of your friend had already happened, the question of you choosing which friend to live and which to die was a trick. Your choice had NOTHING to do with who died. Mary was already dead when you made the choice. The demon merely tricked you knowing you would choose Paul to live so as to make you feel guilty about Mary's death and thus to destroy your relationship with God and perhaps with your friends. BE NOT AFRAID. You are not guilty. Do not let the devil rob you of your peace. Resist the devil and he will flee. God Bless, Bro. Ignatius Mary For information on how to receive help see our Help page. We suggest that before contacting us directly for help you try the Seven Steps to Self-Deliverance. These self-help steps will often resolve the problem. Also our Spiritual Warfare Prayer Catalog contains many prayers that may be helpful. If needed you can ask for a Personal Consultation.

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a decision and a friends death

Liss

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

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Something happened 5 years ago that I still struggle with; I dont know how to feel or think about it.

This story involved three other people, I am giving them different names: a dear friend (paul), a best friend (rachel), and her sister (mary).

At the time, I was in love with paul. We knew we werent supposed to be together and had talked about it, and were continuing in friendship only. I still struggled, but I accepted what God wanted for me.

One night, my mom and I were talking, and she mentioned that in rachels home town, there had been a horrible car accident, and one of the girls in the car had died instantly. I was a little worried it was rachel, but didnt believe it would be her- she lived in a good-sized city.

When I went back up to my bedroom, I was still thinking about this. And suddenly, I thought: what if its mary? I believe this was a question that was asked of me; it had that feeling to it. I struggled with this, and prayed to God to not let it be Mary; I knew it would devastate rachel.

After a few minutes of prayer, another question was asked of me: would you rather paul or mary die? I was shocked and prayed and cried and struggled for a few hours, refusing to choose. I tried everything I could to not decide anything... Then I asked what would happen if I didnt choose, and I was told that they would both die. So, still being in love, I chose for paul to live, but added that I was not making the decision. The voice, whoever it was, stopped talking to me. I was exhausted and fell asleep.

The next morning, I woke up, and found out that mary was dead.

I am confused what to think. I know I had a conversation with a supernatural being, but I dont want it to be God, I would rather it be Satan. However, I dont believe Satan can read minds, and most of this was a conversation inside my head.

Regardless of who I was talking with, I do feel a tremendous amout of guilt and this is just so painful. I just don't know what to do about this.

Thank you.

Question Answered by Bro. Ignatius Mary, OLSM

Dear Liss:

I am sorry for your loss, but you had nothing to do with the death of your friend.

You are correct in saying that this voice was not God. God would not do something like this.

While demons (and angels) cannot read your inner thoughts they can communicate with you and you with them if you choose "inside yoiuyr head".

As the death of your friend had already happened, the question of you choosing which friend to live and which to die was a trick. Your choice had NOTHING to do with who died. Mary was already dead when you made the choice. The demon merely tricked you knowing you would choose Paul to live so as to make you feel guilty about Mary's death and thus to destroy your relationship with God and perhaps with your friends.

BE NOT AFRAID. You are not guilty. Do not let the devil rob you of your peace. Resist the devil and he will flee.

God Bless,
Bro. Ignatius Mary

For information on how to receive help see our Help page. We suggest that before contacting us directly for help you try the Seven Steps to Self-Deliverance. These self-help steps will often resolve the problem. Also our Spiritual Warfare Prayer Catalog contains many prayers that may be helpful. If needed you can ask for a Personal Consultation.