Hello

I’m a devout, practicing Catholic. I love God. I Atttend Church. I try to live my vocations according to God’s will.

I grew up in a home that was electric with demonic activity. I was physically attacked and harrassed several times a week. I suffered with sleep paralysis numerous times a week, several times a night, with all the accompanying demonic bells and whistles. I also survived sexual and physical abuse as a child. (I was not raped however-at least as far as I can remember. I also escaped a very-near kidnapping by a publicly known sexual killer. He was a stranger to me, not an acquaintance. I only mention this because I have a strange feeling it’s related, but I can’t explain why I feel this way.

As an adult, I have occasionally experienced random attacks or hauntings, but they don’t happen very often. The events usually consist of strange sounds, tapping, objects moving around and odors. I tend to treat them somewhat casually, since I grew up with them and they don’t incite extreme fear anymore. I have had my home blessed by a Catholic priest, and I can go a couple of years without any demonic activity, but I never go longer than a couple of years, before some sort of demonic event occurs. I’ve sought assistance and advice, and the general wisdom is that I have a demonic attachment from my childhood.

I have sort of resigned myself to the idea that my life is going to be a continual series of spiritual battles. I arm myself with prayer, especially the rosary,sacramentals and of course, the Sacramental life.

But now, the enemy has suddenly upped the stakes, and I’m terrified.

For several days I’ve been hearing rapping sounds and/or strange music coming from my computer or our clocks (old clocks are my husband’s hobby). I had already told myself that I needed to say some of the prayers from the this site, because they have been extremely helpful in the past. But, I hadn’t gotten around to it yet.

And then yesterday morning, I was suddenly enveloped with a heavy pressure that forced itself on top of me. I was lying on my right side, and was immediately awakened. It began to try and rape me and I heard it tell me to roll over so that it could continue it’s assault. I did not comply. Then it said something else extremely vulgar and direct (but I’m not interested in scandalizing anyone, anymore than they may already be scandalized. You can probably imagine what he said. It also made reference to sexual activity from the past. This time I’ll quote the voice: “just like I used to.”

I remained motionless and terrified. It also spoke using the voice of our parish priest (who is a good and holy priest). Then it finished its attack and was gone. I never gave in to it or complied with it. Afterward, I prayed several Hail Mary’s, a St. Michael prayer and a rosary, but my spirit is still restless.

I’ve been a hot mess ever since.

I am at a loss. I don’t know how to handle this. And even though I know the devil is a liar, his reference to past rapes with me have left me shaken. That being said, I have (as I said before), no memory of being raped, although I suffered several years of sexual abuse from my father, and my mother was physically and emotionally cruel and abusive.

I could really use some insight, and a laundry list entitled, “Heres What You Do.”

I would be most grateful for your assistance.

Pax Christi,

Sally