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Demonic oppression or not?	Cathy	Monday, April 7, 2014
Question: Dear Reverend father, My story may be a long one. I had lived in a very sinful life before I was converted to Catholicism 4 years ago. I was indulged in masterbation since I was around 5 years old. And for a long time in my life I was indulged in fornication and pornography. God gave me so much grace that I began to know the truth and 10 commandments. I was deeply merged in God's love during my conversion to Catholicism. For the first time I began to know what is true love, and moved by His love, I wanted to become a nun. I entered a cloistered convent 2 years ago, and sadness began. Every morning I was in a purgatory during the mass, and feel uncomfortable and strange during liturgy of hours and adoration as well. Many devis rushing to me like floods that I could barely stook on my feet. They treaten and attack me from time to time. I was happy when I was not in the chapel, but when I went in the chapel, my depression began. Of course it's not always like this. As time goes by, more and more I couldn't pray, and in my soul I always saw something dark and cloudy. As if the sky is pressing me. I went out of the convent broken-hearted. Now I am still in a depresion. I am living in a purgatoy. I felt God hated me so much that He dosen't want me any more. Am I punished by God because of my usurp? Please help a poor soul crying out of sorrow.
Question Answered by Bro. Ignatius Mary, OMSM(r), CCL, LTh, DD, LNDC Dear Cathy: Welcome to the Church. I praise God that you put that life behind you and came into the Church. By the way, I am a Brother, not a priest. Much of what you're describing could be attributed to depression of some sort. You need to see a mental health professional to deal with the depression. On the spiritual side what you describe as being uncomfortable and strange during the Divine Office and Adoration, and your experience in chapel, may be a clue to possible demonic harassment. But, I do not have enough information to really say that. God loves you, Cathy. He can do nothing but love you and he wants you so much to be close to him. He is not punishing you, but you are perhaps experiencing the consequences of your own actions. Even when our sins are forgiven the consequences remain. Demons can exploit those consequences to try to rob us of our peace in Christ. Since there is not enough information to really be able to respond to your question, if you wish you may make an appointment with me to talk over the phone. Appointments can be made at our Appointment Calendar. God Bless, Bro. Ignatius Mary For information on how to receive help see our Help page. We suggest that before contacting us directly for help you try the Seven Steps to Self-Deliverance. These self-help steps will often resolve the problem. Also our Spiritual Warfare Prayer Catalog contains many prayers that may be helpful. If needed you can ask for a Personal Consultation.

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Demonic oppression or not?

Cathy

Monday, April 7, 2014

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Dear Reverend father,

My story may be a long one. I had lived in a very sinful life before I was converted to Catholicism 4 years ago. I was indulged in masterbation since I was around 5 years old. And for a long time in my life I was indulged in fornication and pornography.

God gave me so much grace that I began to know the truth and 10 commandments. I was deeply merged in God's love during my conversion to Catholicism. For the first time I began to know what is true love, and moved by His love, I wanted to become a nun. I entered a cloistered convent 2 years ago, and sadness began. Every morning I was in a purgatory during the mass, and feel uncomfortable and strange during liturgy of hours and adoration as well. Many devis rushing to me like floods that I could barely stook on my feet. They treaten and attack me from time to time. I was happy when I was not in the chapel, but when I went in the chapel, my depression began. Of course it's not always like this. As time goes by, more and more I couldn't pray, and in my soul I always saw something dark and cloudy. As if the sky is pressing me. I went out of the convent broken-hearted.

Now I am still in a depresion. I am living in a purgatoy. I felt God hated me so much that He dosen't want me any more. Am I punished by God because of my usurp?

Please help a poor soul crying out of sorrow.

Question Answered by Bro. Ignatius Mary, OMSM(r), CCL, LTh, DD, LNDC

Dear Cathy:

Welcome to the Church. I praise God that you put that life behind you and came into the Church.

By the way, I am a Brother, not a priest.

Much of what you're describing could be attributed to depression of some sort. You need to see a mental health professional to deal with the depression. On the spiritual side what you describe as being uncomfortable and strange during the Divine Office and Adoration, and your experience in chapel, may be a clue to possible demonic harassment. But, I do not have enough information to really say that.

God loves you, Cathy. He can do nothing but love you and he wants you so much to be close to him. He is not punishing you, but you are perhaps experiencing the consequences of your own actions. Even when our sins are forgiven the consequences remain. Demons can exploit those consequences to try to rob us of our peace in Christ.

Since there is not enough information to really be able to respond to your question, if you wish you may make an appointment with me to talk over the phone. Appointments can be made at our Appointment Calendar.

God Bless,
Bro. Ignatius Mary

For information on how to receive help see our Help page. We suggest that before contacting us directly for help you try the Seven Steps to Self-Deliverance. These self-help steps will often resolve the problem. Also our Spiritual Warfare Prayer Catalog contains many prayers that may be helpful. If needed you can ask for a Personal Consultation.