Question:
Dear Bro Ignatius Mary,
I believe I have been tormented by evil spirits for the past 4 weeks. Prior to that, there were mild "manifestations" of evil, such as tapping on walls and other noises, but these things have became worse and worse to the point that now, ever since I've acknowledged that there something wrong going on with me, I can hardly have a full hour without being disturbed in some way…. I think I have been sexually stimulated, but not as bad as some people have reported here ( I've managed, by the grace of God to fight it back and not sin against God through collaborating with such evil), but now, since the sexual assaults have decreased, I experience 'invisible spiders' crawling up my leg, my face and even my intimate parts, I hear noises ( furniture being dragged across, bangs of all sorts, foot stepping when there is no-one but me in the house, etc...).
Before any of this happened, I've always tried to have a serious prayer life (sometimes over 3 hours a day + plus mass and adoration time). I go to confession every 2-3 weeks and receive the Eucharist about 3 times a week, as I am unable to attend mass every day. I attend Sunday mass religiously, though.
As far as I am aware I am not in mortal sin. I have had the house blessed twice to no avail. I've been prayed over by my pastor twice.
I am woken up almost every night by different kinds of noises, mostly tapping that come from my bedroom ceiling... I have now began to feel tired and sometimes I experience heart palpitations that last a few minutes leaving me exhausted and drained, as well as a pressure on my chest. I have to struggle to pray when that happens because I feel so tired and discouraged. I have also seen 2 objects move by themselves on 2 occasions. PLEASE I need help!!!! Before my conversion to God ( I was a non-practicing Catholic for a number of years) I lived a life of self-indulgence and made many mistakes. All these have been confessed and I have been very serious about putting this right. I write about the Catholic faith and teach Catechism at our parish. I don’t understand why is this happening to me… How can I make it stop?
I pray constantly for deliverance, but seem to get little results. I've asked my family and friends to pray for me. They've been great, some of them have offered Masses, novenas, etc on my behalf...But I am still being oppressed. Even as I write this I hear noises (footsteps) that should not be there... Because of a medical condition I can’t even fast in order to make my prayers more effective. I do not know where to turn, my priests seem to have run out of ideas. They are not equipped to deal with these things.
I DO TRUST in God and LOVE Jesus, but sometimes I feel so frustrated and I just want this to stop!
Please help me!
God bless
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Question Answered by Bro. Ignatius Mary, OMSM(r)
Dear Mary:
I am sorry to hear about these torments. The fact these things are happening does not mean that you have done anything wrong. In fact, the harassment may be happening because you are doing things right. The devil likes to harass devout people to try to get them frustrated and lose faith. Do not let the Enemy do that to you.
In other instances, harassment from the Enemy can be completely arbitrary. Evil is often that way -- utterly arbitrary with no specific reason at all.
The solution is the same regardless of how or why these things happen. I recommend that you follow the Seven Steps to Self-Deliverance linked below and also look at the Spiritual Warfare Prayer Catalog (especially the Hedge Prayers of Protection and the Rebuking Particular Spirit).
If following those steps for a couple of months does not bring any relief then you may need to contact us for further help.
Do not let this get you down. That is what the devil wants. Instead, take the wind out of his sails. Instead of frustration and desperation for it to stop, embrace the harassment. Use the harassment as a tool to pray for the salvation of your loved ones, or whomever. Harassing you will no longer be any fun for the devil if you turn it around on him and offer it to God as a grace.
We must remember that suffering is redemptive. It is a great blessing to suffer for our Lord. Jesus said, "Blessed are you when men revile you and persecute you..." (Matthew 5:11). That principle also applies to harassment and attack from the devil.
You are blessed. You need to start thinking of it that way. You have been given a great grace and privilege to suffer for Christ in order to offer up that suffering for the salvation of souls. That is a great mission. When you see it this way, then you can turn this around on the devil -- his harassment becomes an instrument of grace.
We will be praying for you.
God Bless, Bro. Ignatius Mary
P.S. The heart palpitations and tiredness may be a medical problem. You need to check with your doctor.
For information on how to receive help see our Help page. We suggest that before contacting us directly for help you try the Seven Steps to Self-Deliverance. These self-help steps will often resolve the problem. Also our Spiritual Warfare Prayer Catalog contains many prayers that may be helpful. If needed you can ask for a Personal Consultation.
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