Sorry to ask another one of these questions. I've tried to avoid it, but right now it will help me remain obedient to my confessor. I only feel comfortable asking him these questions inside the confessional. Since to remain obedient I must wait a couple of weeks this won't be an option. As a result, I could end up abstaining from the Eucharist, needlessly.

So first, in confession I was mentioning a sin the needed background information. It helped me mention how I fell into sin multiple times from the same thing. The sins were too different for me to lump together. Also, this information helped me to move into mentioning the actual sins (it truly wasn't unnecessary information). Well during this time I realized I had forgotten something ( two sins). I briefly tried to recall it, but couldn't. If I had thought longer I would have, but I was embarrassed to make the priest wait too long. So I figured I had tried my best and moved on. Also, there was a point where I had to confess something I feared the priest would be offended by. When I finally got the courage to say it, my voice clearly showed disgust. I'm unsure if this was done to make it seem like I was more disgusted than I was (so he would be less mad) or because I was embarrassed to mention it. I did state that my actions were wrong and that I didn't approve so that he would be less angered (I did it with some other sins that I was nervous to confess). Lastly, when I did pause for a while I mentioned that I wanted to be careful so that I didn't worry afterwards. I mentioned my long period of abstaining from the Eucharist so that he would be more willing to wait. I decided that my confession was valid and I received the Eucharist. Was this the right decision?

During Mass I began thinking about something I confessed. It involved me drifting towards an unorthodox view in regards to the need for ad orientem. I was thinking about how it was equal to versus populum. This caused me to look at the priest to see what his orientation was. I guess this wasn't sinful, but at the time it bothered me. I began to reassert that both were equal and allowed by the Church. This lead me to think that there was more symbolism in ad orientem. I reminded my self that there was symbolism in versus populum, I just didn't know about it and also, people do prefer that method. I began to think, what if I can't find the symbollism. I pictured my self rejecting versus populum if that was the case (which would have been stupid). Soon after, I came up with the idea that versus populum better symbolised the last supper. This caused me to think that if this where the goal than why don't we all just sit in a circle during Mass (I pictured on the floor because of a women priest "mass " I saw). I reminded myself that that comparison was wrong. I couldn't compare a legitimate posture, at the alter, to sitting on the floor. So did I commit a mortal sin? This sounds scrupulous to me, but I'll leave it to be sure.

Thanks