Dear Eugene:

No, I am sorry but the Internal forum is invalid. Until you receive a proper annulment from the Church you are living in sin and may not receive the Eucharist. Your spiritual director needs to be horse-whipped.

In 1994 the Pennsylvania Bishops Conference released a Pastoral Letter called "In Truth and Love", which included the following statements about Internal Forum that well states the Church teaching:

Some have proposed an approach that would allow divorced and remarried persons who, for any number of reasons, have not received a declaration of nullity of their first marriage(s) to receive holy communion on the basis of their sincere judgment of conscience that their first marriage was invalid. This so-called "internal forum solution" has also been invoked to justify reception of holy communion by persons in other objectively immoral situations.

We believe that those who promote unacceptable pastoral initiatives among divorced Catholics are in fact harming the spiritual welfare of those very persons they intend to help, and as shepherds of the flock we are concerned that the faithful not be misled in this regard.

In light of the serious confusion that sometimes occurs in this matter, we need to enunciate once again that divorced Catholics in irregular unions are not permitted to receive the eucharist. The Catechism of the Catholic Church helps us to understand the theological and pastoral reasons for this necessary restriction.

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Apart from the question of the canonical judicial procedure the "internal forum solution" in which individuals make a personal and subjective judgment about their canonical status is, in fact, a flawed pastoral solution because it cannot bring about the full reconciliation of the couple to the church. The couple's full participation in the life of the church can be re-established only through an ecclesiastical declaration of nullity or the death of a former spouse and the convalidation of the new union. Through these public acts of the church the couple will not only be admitted to holy communion, but will be entitled to share in the full life of the church available to all the laity. We encourage all Catholics who find themselves in irregular marriage situations, and therefore sadly separated from holy communion, to avail themselves of the tribunal process in their local diocese with the hope of being completely reconciled to the sacramental life of the church.

 

In 1980 at the Synod of Bishops, Pope John Paul II clearly answered the question about receiving the Eucharist by divorced and remarried persons who have not received a formal annulment and what such couples must do if they wish to receive the Eucharist:

...the Church reaffirms her practice, which is based upon Sacred Scripture, of not admitting to Eucharistic Communion divorced persons who have remarried. They are unable to be admitted thereto from the fact that their state and condition of life objectively contradict that union of love between Christ and the Church which is signified and effected by the Eucharist...Reconciliation in the sacrament of Penance, which would open the way to the Eucharist, can only be granted to those who, repenting of having broken the sign of the Covenant and of fidelity to Christ, are sincerely ready to undertake a way of life that is no longer in contradiction to the indissolubility of marriage. This means in practice, that when, for serious reasons, such as for example the children's upbringing, a man and a woman cannot satisfy the obligation to separate, they "take on themselves the duty to live in complete continence, that is, by abstinence from the acts proper to married couples.

The bottomline is that you are not validly married in the Church and must immediately stop receiving the Eucharist until you are able to received a canonical annulment. The only other way for you to receive the Eucharist is to separate from your "husband" or is you must live together for sake of children, to live as brother and sister.

I would encourage you to make application for a Decree of Nullity of your previous marriage. The Internal Forum, however, does not exist for determining this issue.

God Bless,
Bro. Ignatius Mary